U is for ummmmmmmmmmmmmm

U is for ummmmmm...........what to write about for this letter. Maybe I can go with unapproachable. That's a good word to use. Unapproachable. Sometimes I am very standoffish for fear of being hurt but other times I let others in just to be hurt like I predicted, self fulfilling prophecy anyone??????????? I have let some in and they have not hurt me but have instead supported me through thick and thin and there's been a
lot of thick or maybe it was thin? I don't know but I do know that they stood by me and haven't let me down so thank you.

I am bad about the walls around me that comes from years of experience in being let down not just by the opposite sex but life in general. I"m not saying my life was all bad but there have been some downs as well as ups. Oh look another U word, lol. My ups in my life have been my friends, my son, my family but my downs have also been that too, except for my son. He's been mostly an up but I have been a down to him for a long time and I wish I could go back and fix it.

I hope now that my life is on an upswing and stays that way for a while I am tired of the down swing and I know I have to be the one that changes that and no one else. I can't blame everything that has gone wrong in my life on others, I have had a huge hand in that myself and it's up to me to fix it.