Note to past self

A note to my past self.  Hello me in 1987, you are getting ready to graduate from high school and face the future. You have made some really great friends who some you will stay in touch with through college and some you will lose contact with until years later when a program named Facebook comes into play and so you get to reconnect with several of your high school friends via a thing called the internet that is used on computers and not the great big giant ones but small ones that sit on a desk. Your former crushes will now be friends on this program and you can see how they are doing in their lives and have mini reunions all the time.

In the next two years you will go on to college and have more crushes and lots of fun and yes you date but not much because you are still a very shy person and that doesn’t change much over the years. And yes, you are still a chatterbox with your friends. You will have some amazing friends in college and you will lose contact with some just as you did in high school but you will keep one or two very close to you over the years. You will be accused of being an alien, that will just have to be a surprise when it happens, you will be in trouble several times in college but not enough to get kicked out and you will discover new adventures and things as the years go by and sometime you will lose the right to go to the Virgin Islands according to your friends.

You will drop out of college because you get upset with the teachers but you will try to go back. In 1992, you will meet your husband and then he turns into your ex after a couple of years but you will be blessed with a wonderful son who has become so much in life and you are very proud of him.

You will do many stupid things in your life but eventually you learn from your mistakes. You will become semi engaged again but it won’t go anywhere so don’t worry too much. He’s not really worth it. You will several guys in your life but only one will truly send you into heartbreak for a while. It’s not his fault it was just a timing thing but for a while you are hurt and you learn that it was just meant to be.

You will continue to pursue your dream of writing and you will have written a complete novel and started two others which hopefully will be published but at this time we don’t know if they will be or not.

As you get older you’ll go back and wish you could change several things in your life but you will come to realize that if you do you won’t have your son or the wonderful friends you have in the future who are a wonderful support system and there are times when you need that. So just a word of advice to you, stay strong and don’t get discouraged. You’ll make it although there will be plenty of days when you want to run and hide. Try to stay the course and get your teaching degree. You love kids and the thirst for knowledge and that will never change. Stay true to yourself and don’t change for others.